Is There Anyone Out There?

Rambling Rose

How does one hold different perspectives at the same time?  One time when I was in the hospital I heard the term "cognitive dissonance" and this term referred to the place where you are holding two different viewpoints and each is vying for primary attention.  Also these viewpoints contradict each other and one must reject one viewpoint in order to achieve peace.  However, I am finding in life that there are very many ways of looking at the world.  Ken Wilbur says that no one is smart enough to be wrong 100% of the time so that means each viewpoint is right at least part of the time.  But people tend to think that they have the right viewpoint.  There are organizations in the world that demand that you accept the tenets lock, stock and barrel and if you don't watch out.  (An aside - According to Ken Wilbur, even George Bush was right some of the time.  If anyone can think of a time he was right, please post.)   Where was I going with all of this?  There have been many transitions in my life starting from when I was very young.  We moved, then we moved again and then we moved again.  I was married, then I was divorced, then I was married, then I was separated, then I was cohabitated.  I work here.  I work there.  Sometimes I didn't work at all.  I have this group of friends.  I have that group of friends.  Sometimes to be friends with someone means adopting their way of being.  Maybe I assumed that position in order to belong.  But sometimes, like when I was a Jehovah's Witness, that was true.  We weren't supposed to question anything.  It felt like I was suppressing something that when it came knocking I had to ignore it.  Sometimes I have felt that it is easiest to be myself when I am alone.  But that is no good either.  (I had a whole bunch of cookies and I am going to have a stomach ache.  Damn!)  Sometimes I want to belong but I don't know the rules.  Sometimes I know the rules but simply don't like them or get tired of spitting out the same ol', same ol' every day.  I am really rambling but that it what good journalling is all about.  But it is supposed to be a private affair.  Blogging is supposed to have a point and have some sort of direction for the benefit of others.  Anyways, I am not delivering that today and I think it is time to find a picture to finish this blog post off.  Lara, this one is for you and I hope you are well and Chris is well and your children are all well.  Sorry folks, no picture today.  It is taking too darn long to upload.